Assume anything, and make an Ass out of U and Me
I really hate being told what to do. Just ask Michael, or my mom. They'll tell you what I get like when someone utters a command, directed at me, in my presence. I turn belligerent and beady-eyed, and transform into a hissing Gollum faster than you can blink.
But what's even worse than being told what to do, is coming up against my own limits. When someone else tells me I can't do something, I respond by being stubborn. I sulk. I retaliate with conviction and rebel. But when it's Me telling Me that I can't do something, because I've come up against a limit of capacity, I can't respond in those same ways. The only thing I can do in those circumstances is to reconsider my pursuit, or at least reconsider the current path I'm taking (and then sulk later).
Since trying out this crowd-driven publisher thing, I've been waging a war against myself (in case that hasn't been clear) in order to be productive. Like any good general, I embarked on my campaign with a few key assumptions. Many of these assumptions, I've since learned, were false.
False Assumption Number One
I could crowdfund successfully, while re-writing my manuscript.
This assumption was flat out wrong. Being an author is like being the Ideas Person, the Software Engineer, and the Business Development Gal of a brand spanking new startup. Each of those functions, to be executed in the way I envision they should be, requires full-time attention. Which makes it difficult to do more than one, much less all of them, at once. I thought I could throw my creative energies into selling, while at the same time throwing my creative energies into writing, and I was wrong.
The act of crowdfunding (the business development bit) was so emotionally exhausting (the introvert in me is strong) that I crawled into a proverbial cave for two months to recuperate. It’s taken me this long to feel like people want to hear from me again. Now, I’m back (still unsure whether people want to hear from me), telling folks all about the ups and downs, and progress I’ve made.
False Assumption Number Two
Re-writing a novel would take less time than writing a new one.
When it comes to re-writing a novel, there’s a lot of calibration that needs to go on. Calibration is a fine-tuned thing that requires patience, focus, and time. Who knew!
False Assumption Number Three
Social Girl would merit a conversation with the agent who has been sitting on it for a year, and read multiple drafts in the process.
Her rejection letter was kind, friendly, and encouraging. Gah.
False Assumption Number Four
Everyone who I might owe an update to, can read my mind.
What do you mean you don’t already know these things?!